
You would think that being this the third time around I would have learned something by now. But again, I am needing to slow down and let go. I have caught myself waking up in the mornings and already making lists of what I want to achieve today, specially what I want to do while the baby naps. Laundry, vaccuming, dinner prep, submitting my manuscript (which no, I didn't manage to submit before little Stian arrived!frustrating!), field work preparation (which others will do this year for me), more laundry, get rid of the layer of something unknown growing in our shower, pick up that old pizza slice from under the sofa, more laundry, wash and brush my hair before it turns into dreadlocks, oh and more laundry.
And while I am carrying this little baby of mine waiting for him to fall asleep, I realize that he is already showing us a glimpse of a smile, that he is actually awake and looking at us instead of doazing of to sleep all day, that he knows when his brothers are close and looks for them. So I have a choice, I either can get irritated by the long list I want to accomplish while he sleeps or I can let go. It is not always easy to let go, specially with three little boys. The housework has to be done at some point or we will all be engulfed by dirty diapers and cat hair (thanks to our long haired molting cat), and probably break a leg while falling over all the toys on the floor. But for a little while it is ok to just be and enjoy tiny baby toes. I have also come to notice that the time the baby naps should be used to be with my big boys as well. They are in much need of some mama time and after the last months of pregnancy and the first weeks after birth when I have hardly played with them, I feel like I have forgotten how to! So we are slowly adapting to life as a family of five.
The next two days I will be alone with the boys as my husband has to travel. It will be interesting to see how we survive. And it will be more interesting to find out how my first trip to the store alone with three children goes, although I might wait a little bit for that and we will stay at home and out in the garden!



On the brighter gardening side. Our rhubarb is starting to grow and the snow has finally melted from our garden. We have now the ugly yellow/brown grass which we can't wait to see go green. I even dared to go out with no tights/legwarmers today to hang the washing on the line. It was not that bad actually, our temperature is finally above 0 degrees and more like 5 or 6 degrees during the day. We are hoping for good weather for the 17th of May, Norways constitution day. I have already planned the cake I will bake.
Until the next time!